Wednesday 22 December 2010

Daughter of Heaven

'Daughter of heaven Oh, daughter of now
Drifting away and you don't make a sound
We'll cry when we hear that you ran from this town
She's gone to a new place now
She's gone to a new place now'

Happy Christmas my sweet child.
I wish I knew where you were.

In the new place of this song?
Nowhere?
Everywhere?
All I know is that you feel so far beyond my reach.

This song reminds me of you.
It is the only song that your Daddy ever asks me to switch off when I play it.
I know it is because it reminds him of you too.
And, strangely, this song comforts me for that very reason.
That he can't bear to hear to it.

Our daughter.

Georgina.
I miss you.
I love you.
I hope my love will find you wherever you may be.
Maybe it just evaporates up into the air?

Perhaps it doesn't truly matter?
My love is still here.
My love for you cannot be undone, just as your brief existence cannot be undone.
And perhaps that means that they will, inevitably, meet.

I hope so.
Happy Christmas my sweet child.


May the holidays pass peacefully for everyone who reads this, especially those who are missing children of their own

19 comments:

  1. O, Catherine. This song...

    One of our favorite lullaby CDs is Willie Nelson's Stardust, and it has a version of Unchained Melody on it. The song reminds me of Junior High dances and boys and girls standing in lines across the room from each other, wanting to dance, to be asked, not wanting to ask. N would skip it every time it came on, and didn't tell me until months had past that it reminds him of Teddy so much that it was just hard to hear. And now, sometimes, I just need to hear it. It means more, now.

    Missing your Georgina with you, hoping with all my heart that she's wrapped in your love, wherever she is.

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  2. Catherine this song is amazingl. Thank you for sharing it along with your beautiful words for Georgina.

    Merry Christmas to you and little Georgina, It gives me comfort to hope that she will have a beautiful day with my Hadley and all of the other angels.

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  3. "the stars are your jewels, the moon is your crown"

    what a beautiful and meaningful song this is! thank you for sharing it.

    i do believe they can "hear" us, and that they know that we love them.

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  4. with tears...

    Happy Christmas, Georgina. And to your mummy and daddy and sister too.

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  5. What a lovely song. Love to you Catherine. x

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  6. Merry Christmas to Georgina and to your entire family.

    T

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  7. What a beautiful song for your darling girl. I do hope that all of our angels are playing merrily together this Christmas time.

    Sending much love to you and your beautiful girls. xxx

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  8. Thanks for sharing this beautiful song...
    Merry Christmas to you too, your family and Georgina...xoxo

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  9. Another one of your posts that hit the nerve. That allow me to bawl (like I haven't in a while). Thanks for that.

    "My love for you cannot be undone, just as your brief existence cannot be undone. And perhaps that means that they will, inevitably, meet."

    I hope so too...

    Oh, and thanks for sharing this lovely song. Never heard it before but it's bookmarked (as Georgina's song). Be assured she'll be in my thoughts when I listen to it.

    Sending big loves and wishing you happy and peaceful holidays. xoxo

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  10. Happy Christmas to all of you. And many hugs.

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  11. "This song reminds me of you.
    It is the only song that your Daddy ever asks me to switch off when I play it.
    I know it is because it reminds him of you too.
    And, strangely, this song comforts me for that very reason.
    That he can't bear to hear to it."

    I so get this.

    Hoping you have a gentle and happy Christmas and New Year. xx

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  12. Oh Catherine this is just beautiful... I am going to share it with one of my best friends who could probably use it right now...
    Sending you grace and love...

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  13. And Merry Christmas...

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  14. I don't know where our girls are, but I hope they are free - free from the pain we feel.

    I have a whole playlist that I just don't play anymore.

    Christmas was busy enough that I pretty much breezed through it, took a few moments for Serenity, but otherwise relished in the differentness of this years. I hope yours was peaceful too.

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  15. Simply beautiful song. My goodness do I relate to, "And, strangely, this song comforts me for that very reason./That he can't bear to hear it." Hope you had a peaceful Christmas. Thinking of you and your daughters. xo

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  16. Merry Christmas to you and your family and your beautiful Georgina. This song is hauntingly beautiful. I have never heard it before. Thank you for sharing.

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  17. I'm late getting here Catherine but I am thinking of you right now. Much lovve xx

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  18. Oh Catherine-

    I sit here crying, and looking at the date on this, I see that this post was made only a few days after I lost my Beatrix.

    Thank you for sharing it- today is such a difficult day, for some reason.

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